Summer 2015

I have been thinking a lot about Ireland lately (no surprise there). What surprised me the most about this was how bummed I was that I would not be able to drive all over the place this summer. If I go to Ireland, I will be gone for almost the entire month of June. That would be all of the time I could take off work. I have a car for the first time in my life and I want to explore.

I have discovered a new problem with this Ireland trip. There is another trip I have to go on this May. It is required for my major and it ends two days before I would fly out. I can't justify taking that much time off of work (it would be over a month). It is looking more and more like it is not going to happen. You know what? I am okay with this. It would be awesome to go with Jessica and Kathy, but I am pretty sure that this field school is offered every year. There will be other opportunities to go. I will go to Ireland someday. It will happen, it just might take while.

In the past couple of days I have pretty much given up on Ireland, but I have also started to think about where I can drive over the summer. Most of the trips will be for geology research. I need to do a directed study for my major and the summer is the best time to get all that research done. I know that I would like to make a trip to Utah to search for obsidian (volcanic glass). It is my favorite rock. Haha. Summer is so far away and I am already making plans. Oh, goodness.

Cars and Ireland

Hello all those who manage to stumble upon this blog of mine. A while ago (I'm not sure how long, because I have no sense of time) I told you all my story about my lack of a driver's license. Well I am pleased to say that, thanks to a wonderful friend of mine and my sister, I not only have my license, but a car! Exciting stuff. It is still a bit strange for me to be driving after so long of walking everywhere, but I am getting used to all of this 'having a car' stuff. It is very nice though, to finally be able to go where I want without having to rely on others.

So in other news, I have found another possibly out of my reach trip of a lifetime. It is a field school in Ireland (the place I want to go to above all others). Since it is a field school it will be constant geology work, which is fine. This is something that will put me ahead when looking for a job in this field. It would be a great experience and I am trying whatever I can to go.

Naturally I have a voice in my head telling me that it is too expensive and I shouldn't do it, but honestly I am tired of that voice. I am tired of these opportunities passing me by. I say that and I am very aware that there is still a good chance that I will not be able to go. *sigh* I am trying. I will know more in the next few weeks. I am meeting with someone in the International Studies office soon, so we'll see how that goes.

Until nex time!

What May Never Be

I am ready to move on with my life. It is time to move on to something bigger and better, though I still have no idea what that my be. I feel like I desperately need a change, but there is one major factor holding me back. I don't have my driver's license. 

This is a tough subject to bring up. What twenty-five year old doesn't have their driver's license? I have heard people laugh at this subject, apparently it is unacceptable to not have a license. The one question I am asked when it is brought up is why? There could be many many reasons why someone in their twenties doesn't have their license, and really, it is probably none of your business. Not everyone has the same circumstances. I am sure you would be surprised to find out how many people do not have the ability or the opportunity to drive. 

Regardless of reasons, the fact does not change. I am still without a license and with very very little hope of getting one in my future. This has put me into a very bad mood this summer. I live in Colorado and not having the ability to drive is not something one can do forever. I have gotten this far without one, but I feel like I am stuck until I manage to get one. 

I have had a few people tell me that they would for sure help me get my license and nothing (the real reason for my anger). This is not really something I can do on my own. It is so very frustrating. I don't want to waste a bunch of money on a junker I could use to teach myself to drive, but that is appearing to be my only option. I can't get myself a reliable car because no one would give me a loan or a car without my license. I really am stuck and I don't know what to do about it. 

I just want to leave. I want to pack up and go anywhere that isn't here, okay so I might also really need a vacation. 

I am tired of all of this. I am tired of not having a social life. I am tired of having to take the bus everywhere or relying on others to drive me places. I am tired of not even having the option of leaving. This entire situation makes me want to scream. I really don't know what to do.

I apologize for this rant. I have tried to keep this blog from being negative, but I just needed to get this out.